You know that point in your life when you're happy and everything is fine? You've got everything you need, at least those that you need now.

Then you find yourself at the end of the day visiting that folder of the dream you wish you can have now. You make plans again, you think of ways to make it happen.

It happened tonight.

And for a minute or so you entertain that sad feeling. Wishing that you can just drop all your responsibilities as an adult, that you can be bold and brave to put yourself out there again.

Then you wipe those tears and pray. Thanking Him for all the blessings you have right now. You pray for patience. You remember those times when He surprised you with His own plan and how it all made sense.

Then you let go of that sadness, the regrets and disappointments, and trust Him.

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I remember sharing in MBS last April how often we read in the Bible and hear from people about letting go and trusting Him; and how hard it is for us as human beings to do it, since we're so used to taking control and making plans. And how frustrating and disappointing it feels when your plans don't work out.

How wonderful to realize that all this time He's been teaching me the one thing I've always wanted to learn. J